Letting go

July 13, 2017

Third chapter

We had an amazing summer in 2015 but it didn't last that much. 
When I got back home, we started to argue a lot, mostly for stupid things. 
So we once again broke up, the difference this time was that a couple of weeks later he was in a relationship with someone else. 
This was the first time he had broken my heart completely, I felt lost and empty.
I couldn't move on since our break up was kinda messy and he didn't really gave me a reason, he actually told me he was breaking up with me because he didn't want to hurt me. 
I still went on vacation to my native country that year and ended up having a lot of fun. 
I did everything in my power to avoid him. The thing is he texted me saying he was sorry and that I deserved better and for the first time I actually told him that I didn't care about how sorry he was. He kept texting me until I decided to forgive him. I decided to give him another chance. 
He was in Italy doing an internship so he asked me if I could come.  So after my birthday trip I bought the plane tickets to go to Italy and booked the hotel. 
One month before my departure out of nowhere he broke up with me... a couple of days later he was already dating someone else. 
I went to Italy anyway, when I got there he and this other girl were officially together.  I spent 2 weeks traveling around Italy and I actually don't regret it. 
I needed this trip to finally realize I never needed him to be happy or to feel alive and unique . It was my first solo trip and it won't be the last one. 
If I'm going to be honest, I have to say that doing this trip by myself was hard because as the days went by I was realizing that what we had wasn't love anymore. If it was love he wouldn't left me to date other girls. 
I want to believe we loved each other, I know I did love him, but we fell out of love and the only thing left was the need to be loved and I guess we were just used to be together and it felt right to be together. 
We should have ended our relationship a longtime ago, we were torturing each other. We tried everything to make our relationship work but some things will never work. 
I don't regret falling in love with him, but I regret all the times I forgave him for the same mistakes. 
This relationship changed me, I'm so much more strong now, I'm finally over him and I'm happy with myself. I finally feel complete and I'm proud of the person I've become. 






10 comments:

  1. I agree with you. Sometimes relationship teach us important lessons in life.

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    1. Yeah :/ it's really hard sometimes, thanks for you comment :D

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  2. I love this post. Update me when chapter four is published.

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  3. wao it was interesting reading this. waiting for chapter-4

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    1. thank you :D all chapters are out. 1-falling for the devil 2- summer of my life 4-getting over your ex

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  4. Ooh what a jerk! He must really derive pleasure from hurting others. You sound like a mature person. Am just glad you aren't under his clutches anymore. He sounds like a narcissist - no empathy & no real remorse + discarding other people without a reason. Hugs

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    1. Thank you :D, yes but there were good parts in our relationship if you want to know the whole story the chapter 1 is "falling for the devil" the second is "summer of my life" the third is this one and the forth is "getting over your ex", hugs :D

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  5. Nice article. Hard lessons that teach best lessons.

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